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I hate it when I get that question for interviews.

I hate having to brag about myself, but it’s not as confusing as trying to tell people your weaknesses and negative points without making yourself sound too lousy.

I end up saying things like “I like to make sure my work is done well but I am too much of a perfectionist sometimes”, and then try to justify the weaknesses I pointed out by saying things like ” so now I always make sure I keep (insert choice of weakness here) in check to make sure it does not hinder me from performing my best”. Which, in my opinion, sounds just real blah. But I really couldn’t figure out what else to say. :S

Oh well, that was it for today’s interview. Did not go as well as I had hoped, but oh well. At least the one on Monday with SCRIBE went a little better. Maybe ’cause they didn’t ask me THAT question. haha. Now, there’s just one more interview to go for my Round 1 of internship allocation — tomorrow’s interview with MTV Asia. Sure hope I get an offer, otherwise it’ll be real sad to get thrown into Round 2 and let some faceless machine (computer) allocate me randomly. But I guess I am lucky — I got all the interviews that I was hoping for.

Can’t wait for my internship actually. I think it’s really going to be fun! And for a full semester some more! yay…

It is definitely going to be more work than school, what with working overtime being the norm with production work. But at least I don’t have to attend lectures and write stupid essays that really aren’t necessary. I’d much rather be out there working on a location shoot or editing a real drama or commercial or whatever. I never understood why we were always given so much papers to write when practical hands-on work is obviously the most effective way of learning for this field. Maybe it’s just cause we’re a university and serious boring academic shit is expected of us so that we can differentiate ourselves from the more technically-inclined (and skillful) polytechnics offering the same course. whatever ler.

Ok, I think my showreel DVD is finally done burning. Now I can get out of this freezing broadcast practicum room. And go de-frost my fingers.

p/s: single-click mouse on Macs is yucks.

hahah, ok lah, that’s really giving myself A LOT of credit by calling myself an “artist” tag to begin with.. XD

I was just looking through some of the nicer artwork that I did last time and today, I feel like I really like this one.

Maybe ’cause the colour is rich. I dunno. This just strikes my fancy today.

This was done ages ago. I think probably like 5 years ago when I was still in secondary school or something. Copied it out of some book I can’t even remember now.

Maybe I should get back to painting or just creating art some time… I have not touched a paint brush in over 2 years (or more? I lost count). Plus, I’ve been feeling a little uncreative of late… so, maybe huh…. hmmm…

Mid-Autumn festival has just ended yesterday. And here I am now, finally willing to cut up that piggy mooncake to eat at last.

My darling got it for me (I’m a little piggy too) from one of the chinese restaurants in 1Utama. And that was one week ago. It’s been sitting on my table looking so adorable I couldn’t bring myself to eat it.

I mean, just look at it! So0o cute and chubby!

But I figured it’ll soon get spots on its face when the mold starts growing. So I better eat it before it becomes ugly.

Happy belated Mid-Autumn Festival! oink oink!

p/s: there’s always been all these ‘zhue zai peng’ (piggy biscuit in cantonese) selling in the market every mid-autumn, but they never sold the pig-shaped ones. Always the fish-shaped ones only, in a cheap plastic basket. I always wondered why the heck are they called ‘zhue zai’ when it’s clearly a fish. Now finally everyone is selling the pig-shaped ones.

i hate it when project screws up.
I spent my effort trying to secure an interview with a company for a project case study. When I finally got the interview date, I realised I would be back home. So fine, I even took the effort to prepare out a list of things to ask and a focus list on things we absolutely need to find out and learn from the interview. And emailed it to my group so whoever that’s going for the interview has something to work on.

And in the end, the interview turned out to be pretty much useless. The company refused to give too much details, glossing over all our questions. Fine, I’m pissed already coz that’s leaving us hanging with nothing when they say they could help us at first. But I’m also pissed that nobody bothered to press further for more details, ask more questions to get more info, or even any supporting documents that they can give us. At the end of the interview, we still don’t know how the company structure looks like! We just know it’s a flat structure with the CEO doing a lot of work! Gee, that’s gonna be damn useful in writing a 5000 word submission in two bloody weeks’ time. AND the telephone call or e-mail that was supposed to be placed to the MDA for some additional background info on our case study hasn’t even been made!! And I provided the contacts and press release info to the one who volunteered to make the call like 2 weeks ago!

grrrr…. am I the only person who feels the urgency of the stupid project?

And it’s not like this is the only thing I have to do. I still have my script to write, a 3page paper to submit next week and a midterms test. I don’t mind working on those, but I don’t need more rubbish to worry coz interviews aren’t carried out properly and calls that we supposed to be made weren’t done and no one seems to give a damn but now only come and ask, ’so how ah?’

argh. *fuming*

can’t fall asleep right now.

so messed up. why can’t i get anything right.

wished little things like songs can lull me to sleep but nothing works and garth brooke’s ‘lost in you’ makes me tear. :s

where;s the rewind button? oh wait, sorry that option isnt available in life.

waiting for time to pass and to fall asleep..

I finally went ahead with getting a new hair-do without caring how bad it might turn out. Figured that I could just lop them off after a while if things get disasterous.

Went to Kimarie in SS2 and did a perm (called the H2O perm or something, suppose to give me more natural big curls). The hairstylist was a very friendly girl, much nicer than the previous few I had. She layered my hair so that I won’t end up with a head of exploded hair, and then spent 3 hours making my hair curl. I didn’t dare curl from the roots for fear of a fashion disaster. Only have them halfway down, and the end result was actually quite nice.

I’m not quite used to this new ‘look’ yet. I guess it’s just a bit strange ’cause I’ve always had semi-straight hair. Just hope it doesn’t become too unruly or explodes. My hair has the tendency to do funny things. And suddenly I realised I don’t quite need that special hair brush i bought at Body Shop a while ago to tame my unruly tresses.

Of course, without fail, the hairstylist Esther remarked that I had a very thick head of hair. Everytime I go and get a hair cut, I get that remark. Every. Single. Time. I know they are all secretly going “omg, this isn’t going to be easy” when they say that. Especially when I’m there for more than just a hair cut.

Halfway through while sitting there and waiting for my hair to soften before curling, a few tall pretty leggy caucasian girls came in. Turns out the airlines send some of their flight attendents here on Fridays to get their hair done and learn how to tie their hair and stuff like that. They looked like they were having fun, singing to some pop tune on the radio while twisting their hair into perfect buns. Probably ’cause they don’t have to pay for all that hair pampering themselves. I’m jealous.

Maybe it’s too early to tell yet (if anything wrong is going to happen to my hair), but I think I like this little change.
Refreshing.

I enjoyed my lunch today. Had a great time chatting with my wonderful galpals Sangy and Pamy, and her husband boyfriend Tim , over some bak kut teh in Paramount. Just a little get-together before Sangy flies off to UK next Friday.

It’s been awhile since we did that, but it’s fun as always. Guess our separate education routes after A Levels(and soon, career paths) made our get-togethers few and far in between. But everytime we do get to hang out, it’s almost as if we’re still roommates back in Eton Hall, almost as if we’ve yakked and chatted just yesterday.

It’s a nice feeling I guess. I admit I’m not great with keeping friendships and all. And sometimes some of the friendships forged back in the old times of uniformed-schooling days don’t seem to advance further. Everytime we do meet, we just end up reminiscing about the past but don’t have much in the present to connect us together anymore. Well, maybe it’s me being a lousy “keep-in-touch”-er, but that’s truly how I feel sometimes.

But of course, there are those people, a smaller group of them, whom you know are truly good friends that you can totally connect with regardless of the time passed and geography shifts. We might not get to hang out often like last time ‘coz we all have our own lives to live now, but we know we’re always just a phone call away (or msn/skype/etc), and these are the friends who won’t judge you but will always be there for you. It’s hard to find these kinda friendships, but I guess I can count myself lucky to have found some along the way all these years, from secondary school till now.

And of course, some friendships can ‘evolve’ into something more. Just like how a “omg u have the same full name as my godsister” message on icq can spark off a friendship that grew into a supportive, loving relationship between me and my darling.

All these little friendships that give meaning to our lives.
The little joys of the human connection.

There is now a mini-mini iPod!!

iPod nano sounds perfect to me. I’m so excited. Always thought that iPod shuffle had too little hard disc space, while the regular iPod offered just a little too much that it’s unnecessary for me (20GB of music is overkill lah seriously). But iPod nano seems like a marriage of the two so that it’s still tiny enough in size yet packs enough features for me without being an overkill.

USD249 for 4GB (I don’t need 10,000 songs to listen to), colour LCD display (cool!), and way thinner than the other iPod models (yay!). And it looks pretty in white!! *wheee* And some guys ran a ’stress test’ on the iPod nano and concluded that it’s almost indestructible (they managed to finally send it to iPod heaven after throwing it at various heights at various travelling speeds and running it over with a car).

*drools*
I want an iPod nano!

and yup, I am ready to go!

Well, I’ll have to wait till my class ends tomorrow. But I’m all set to go home for my 1-week recess break!! wheee… And polarbear is coming home with me! (polarbear is my laptop’s name heehee).

I realised this will be the first time that I’m leaving so soon as the holidays starts. It will also be the first time that I will get to spend more than a mere 3 or 4 days at home for the recess week. Had to settle a few stuff beforehand, and some friends helped to cover some work for me over the break, and now I’m ready to go for my holidays.

This feels good. Previous years’ recess breaks have always been stressful. Can’t even stop thinking about some of my unfinished projects when I was home. But I’m not gonna let that screw up my holidays this time round.

Have plans all laid out for the weekend, and I’m excited: mamak, car ride (au yong bought a new car!), dinner, hanging out, and F1 race on Sunday!! Two F1 races two weeks in a row. This is good. I hope Kimi wins. I’ll have to send him off at the airport on Sunday for his US business trip. He’ll be gone for two weeks - boohoo - but it’s alright, it’ll be a great weekend.

I can’t wait for my holidays! =)

Got to give myself some self-encouragement and and tune the enthusiasm level a few notches up– I’m going to learn how to use Flash on my own!

Rah rah rah! *waves pom-poms*

I’m pretty lazy when it comes to all these self-learning. Was never really one to pick up how-to books and learn something from scratch on my own, ’cause I’m just such a lazy bum. But I guess some things have to change. Which is why I have got to psyche myself up and make sure I keep up the enthusiasm for learning Flash.

Plus, my “tutor” — the book I’m learning from: Foundation - Macromedia Flash MX 2004 by Besley, K. & Bhangal S. — is a gift from him. So I better make sure I make good use of the book before he comes and whacks my head with it.

And it’d be cool at the end of it when I can create funky flash animations and websites. Which is why I have to make sure I complete this.

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On a totally unrelated note: French lyrics can be so silly yet fun.

Walked into my French class last Friday and music was blaring at one corner of the classroom. I thought we were gonna have a party or something (that’d be cool). Turns out my french tutor Emmanuelle was just trying to get us to learn french through music. That was fun, and plus, she listens to Anggun too! Well, the french songs at least..

Today, she gave us lyrics to the song Suzette by Dany Brillant. The tune is really cute and silly. It was fun trying to work out what he was singing about.

It’s a love song that started with “I met her/ in one of these parties/ I couldn’t even look at her/ her eyes were burning me so much.”

And other stuff like: “only one of her kisses/ is enough to set on fire/ the heart of humanity/ or the guys in my neighbourhood”. Haha.

Or “Over a cup of coffee/ on one of the quays on the Seine River/ In the cold of the gloomy morning/ one day I will tell her that I love her”.

Sounds so0o cheesy when translated to English. Almost like one of those sugar-candy sweet pop crap on radio. But in french, it just sounds a whole lot better and made it cute. Or even romantic, if you can excuse the sillyness.

Wheee… and now that we’ve learnt past tense, we have been upgraded from a 5-year-old language ability to that of a 7-year-old.