tsewei’s blog

sigh… It’s the end of August already, and my scholarship money is nowhere in sight. Not even the usual e-mail that tells me when to expect my bank account to magically jump from 3 digits to 4 digits. so sad.

I somehow suspect the scholarship people have forgotten about me. My other two friends on the same scholarship have gotten their $$$ but where is mine?! Probably has got something to do with me going on exchange and the uni system still thinks I’m in Year 2 or some shit like that. bah.

Just realised that all these semesters, I don’t actually know whom I should speak to about scholarship matters. They just somehow ended up as this party that sends me e-mail telling me my money is here and that’s it. =S Had to ask Kai Rene whom I am suppose to speak to when I call their office. This is bad.

I’m gonna give them a call tomorrow. Or better yet drop by the office. I need to feed my bank account.

I just got back from sending au yong off on his bus ride back to KL. I guess I’ll see him again soon, but couldn’t help but feel just a tad sad then, especially after the great weekend we just had.

I realized I haven’t really enjoyed my weekends like this in a long time. I guess it’s because I’ve really made sure I finished up all the work I needed to do so that I don’t have to freak out about deadlines while I’m out halfway shopping or something. He’s also relatively stress-free since he’s officially finished education, forever. It’s just so much nicer knowing that all the time in that weekend is dedicated for each other only, with nothing else to worry about.

We had fun at Bar None, and it was apparent we’d be bankrupt before we can even get ourselves slightly intoxicated on the booze. But the band Jive Talking was pretty good.

Did more shopping during the weekend. I actually managed to NOT buy any books/clothes/shoes/other-cute-thingys-that-I-don’t-need. teehee. But he got me a nice bag. wheee. And we did more makan makan and makan. Or rather, we kinda overdid it on the ‘makan makan makan’ side (we had a SIX-piece chicken SET from kfc for our TV dinner watching EPL). I embarked on a burping spree soon after.

Brewerkz was nice. Nice beer (2nd time I ever used another word other than ‘yucks’ to describe beer), and they had live F1 telecast! (that earns extra brownie points) I kinda miss watching F1 with him. (Well, he got me into the whole thing to begin with.) It was a nice place to be at, if you’re a McLaren fan. Perfect evening, if Montoya hadn’t screwed up at the end of the race, and if I hadn’t accidentally ate the chillies in the salsa dip.

But despite all the fun stuff, I think the single reason that had me singling this out as one of the best weekends I had was the great company. In essence, we are pretty different people (for starters, IT genius vs. tech e-diot) but we still find a lot of stuff to laugh about together and share.

Sometimes I envy friends who can go off and have a meal with their other-halves at anytime, while I had to be content with my Skype calls and just sit and wait for weeks just for the next dinner together. But when I think about it again, I guess I don’t mind waiting a bit ’cause we end up truly appreciating every moment, even the minutes on the phone calls.

So I’m just going to sit here, and wait patiently for the next available weekend (and pray for less Saturday project reviews n etc).

school work is really getting to me already. urgh. don’t feel like I have enough time for everything when Video1 keeps having me spending up to 6 or more hours a week for a mere small group assignment.

One thing that I never really got it, is that how here in Singapore we’re always expected to use Saturdays and holidays just to finish up the work. After-class time just isn’t enough adn weekend plans have to be ruined for projects. Not that I don’t enjoy my projects, they are fun though a lot of hard work is involved. But it’s just the prospect of having to use up my weekends for them when I could have other plans.

I guess it didn’t bothered me much last time. Got kinda used to not going home for months and just staying here for my weekends and holidays. But now I am really thinking that this sucks. I want to maximise the amount of time that I can have spending quality time with people who matter to me, but all these work seems to threaten the possibility of it.

Realise that I have a larger project to shoot coming up in about two weeks. I really do hope my weekends won’t be affected. Pray that everything will be done by Friday and leave my weekends alone.

sigh. All I am asking for is just some time to be with my darling who matters to me and whom I haven’t seen for half a month. I guess now my ‘battle’ plan would be to just spent whichever weekend I can travelling back to KL, before some stupid assignment stands in its way. And to spend my weekdays to do my studying and homework. With all these I really can’t work like I used to where I just leave things to the last moment. Gotta change and make sure I can plan everything and get them all done at the same time without compromising the time that I can get for my personal life. I guess that means I won’t bother with the replacement class for French this saturday. I’d rather spend my time in a more meaningful manner.

I guess that’s also why I am stopping co-curricular activities this year onwards. It was something that I was interested at first, but the system has forced it to become something more of a burden. Finally, I just want some peace and quiet time for myself without getting myself crazily busy with 1001 things to handle on top of school work. I just want to be able to balance my schoolwork and my personal life, without tiring myself out unnecessarily (and ending up looking like a panda for not sleeping most of the semester).

I’m sick of all this, and I’m going to just do things however I feel is important to me. This system really irks me to no end (coz overseas, nobody would dream of working on a bloody weekend or worse, holiday).

Is it humanly possible to just squeeze some time out for a good weekend? sigh. I’ll figure that out and do my best for what matters to me.

time to go for class now. I’ll blog again soon. Probably to rant again sometime, but hopefully not.