It was another mad rush travelling back to KL and then back here again in time for work tomorrow, but it was worth it. At least it gave me a little more time to spend the Saturday with my darling au yong before we went to KLIA with his family for his flight to Tokyo.
He’s finally left for Tokyo, after so many months of wondering when the paperwork for his work permit will be done and what plans his company had for him.
But sending him off at the airport didn’t turn out to be as depressing as it might have been. Sure, I was a bit saddened by it, but him leaving was a bit unreal. It felt so normal it was unreal. It was as if I was just sending him off on one of his business trips for a week or two, when in reality, he’s gonna be there for the next few years.
I thought I would end up crying, but we didn’t.
Maybe it was because we’ve been together and apart for so many times, constantly travelling to meet each other and sending each other off at the airport or bus terminals, that this time it almost feels routine. I mean, I seriously never visited the airports as much as I did in the last year than I did in my whole life before that. We have already grown so used to being apart as much as being together.
Maybe it’s also the comfort of knowing that we’ve been through our relationship while being far apart for 6 months. Knowing that we’ve survived our relationship with me in NY and him in KL is somewhat of a comforting thought. After all, Tokyo is only 1 hour ahead of Singapore, so there’s no need to wake up at weird hours of the day just to talk on the phone like last time.
Maybe it’s also because we’ve been preparing ourselves for this eventual move to Tokyo for quite a while already. We knew of the news since mid 2005, and have been thinking “oh maybe as early as August” or “maybe it’ll be next month” then just waiting and waiting.
But I guess it is good this way. Of course I feel sad whenever I’m on my own here, but the knowledge that we managed it before, and the feeling that tells me it will be just fine, makes everything alright.
Sometimes I lose track of all these and get depressed and start wondering isn’t it enough that we’ve been apart for 1 year and why everyone gets to have a relationship where they don’t have to travel out of the country just to meet up. But I guess the answer is that this is not just ANY other relationship, it’s one that matter to us, and since we’ve put our hearts to it, we will work hard to make everything work out fine, and it will all eventually make us appreciate the relationship more.
I will definitely fly there to visit him in July when my internship is over, and it’s comforting to know that we will definitely see each other soon. We just need to stay strong and work hard in the meantime. The bonus would be if he gets to visit Singapore on his business trips, but now i’m contented with the plans for July. 