school work is really getting to me already. urgh. don’t feel like I have enough time for everything when Video1 keeps having me spending up to 6 or more hours a week for a mere small group assignment.

One thing that I never really got it, is that how here in Singapore we’re always expected to use Saturdays and holidays just to finish up the work. After-class time just isn’t enough adn weekend plans have to be ruined for projects. Not that I don’t enjoy my projects, they are fun though a lot of hard work is involved. But it’s just the prospect of having to use up my weekends for them when I could have other plans.

I guess it didn’t bothered me much last time. Got kinda used to not going home for months and just staying here for my weekends and holidays. But now I am really thinking that this sucks. I want to maximise the amount of time that I can have spending quality time with people who matter to me, but all these work seems to threaten the possibility of it.

Realise that I have a larger project to shoot coming up in about two weeks. I really do hope my weekends won’t be affected. Pray that everything will be done by Friday and leave my weekends alone.

sigh. All I am asking for is just some time to be with my darling who matters to me and whom I haven’t seen for half a month. I guess now my ‘battle’ plan would be to just spent whichever weekend I can travelling back to KL, before some stupid assignment stands in its way. And to spend my weekdays to do my studying and homework. With all these I really can’t work like I used to where I just leave things to the last moment. Gotta change and make sure I can plan everything and get them all done at the same time without compromising the time that I can get for my personal life. I guess that means I won’t bother with the replacement class for French this saturday. I’d rather spend my time in a more meaningful manner.

I guess that’s also why I am stopping co-curricular activities this year onwards. It was something that I was interested at first, but the system has forced it to become something more of a burden. Finally, I just want some peace and quiet time for myself without getting myself crazily busy with 1001 things to handle on top of school work. I just want to be able to balance my schoolwork and my personal life, without tiring myself out unnecessarily (and ending up looking like a panda for not sleeping most of the semester).

I’m sick of all this, and I’m going to just do things however I feel is important to me. This system really irks me to no end (coz overseas, nobody would dream of working on a bloody weekend or worse, holiday).

Is it humanly possible to just squeeze some time out for a good weekend? sigh. I’ll figure that out and do my best for what matters to me.

time to go for class now. I’ll blog again soon. Probably to rant again sometime, but hopefully not. smiley